I like to plan. I enjoy planning vacations, fashion shows for work, parties, etc. I especially loved starting a baby registry and planning the layout for the nursery. Now that I am thrown into a situation where the plans keep changing, I’m super frustrated. Going with the flow was never my thing. Alex has helped me to be a little more spontaneous but one can only change so much. I want my calendar back, one in which I don’t have to write in pencil.
Alex and I have been going through a lot these past few months (to say the least). Trying to process changing information in regards to our baby’s outcome, medical mysteries, and having to wait to deliver has been difficult. The bleeding that started this week was just the cherry on top of this awful situation.
I don’t want to gross anyone out so stop reading if you don’t like medical details.